Live to Tell My Story

I'm going to make this short and sweet. I've stopped posting on this blog, if you've failed to notice, to the point of where there's probably no one reading this at all. And that's OK. I feel like I need to do one final post, something to close off this blog. I just wouldn't feel right leaving an open end.
I could come up with a list of reasons as to why I'm done with this blog, but it all comes down to the fact that there is nothing left to say. There is no shock factor left in my eating disorder, nothing enlightening or inspirational to share with you. It's still here, pulling the same stunts it has all along. While my eating disorder has not changed, something in me has, which is another reason I'm ending this blog.
I cannot give my eating disorder this type of attention any longer. I can't let myself whine and complain, feeding into my misery. It is what it is. Saying that dealing with it sucks is an understatement, but it's reality, and my reality isn't going to be changing. I may have to deal with this for the rest of my life, and in all honesty...I'm OK with that. There are still days I want to give up, some days I wish it on anyone but myself, but I was given this for a reason.
My eating disorder makes me a much stronger person. I am so much more grounded, and have an incredible amount of drive and ambition for my life. I know now of the things in life that are truly valuable to me, and I appreciate so much that others overlook. My life may have been a lot simpler without my eating disorder, and it most definitely would be easier. But this is my life now, and I need to focus on the positive.
I have been given this for a reason. I want to take what I've been through, and use it to educate and influence the lives of others. The glamor needs to be stripped away, and the truth needs to be heard.  I will suffer through, and I will survive. I am going to live to tell my story.

**In case you happen to run across this if you still check up on my blog every once in a while, I have started a new one, which I post more faithfully to - feel free to check it out http://leahevevandenbosch.blogspot.com/